A bunch of crazy rambling thoughts...

So I'm having just crazy thoughts today. I started my second round of maintenance chemo yesterday. I am blessed and take my chemo in pill form. My sweet oncologist thought she should increase my dose. I was fine when she told me. I haven't ever had a big problem with it before. Things have changed I force food. I'm drinking lots of water.

Last nights dinner was blah. The smells. The slimy noodles. The spices. Thanks Hello Fresh. All that matters is how the family felt about the food. They liked it. They will be eating it again tonight. I will not. I have a friend dropping dinner off. It will be my dinner and tomorrow nights food.

Last night I felt awful. Its such a timed process. I was hungry but couldn't eat. I took anti nausea pill but nope I could have hurled.

My other crazy thought... When I was younger and I wanted to cry I would watch my cry movie. Mine was Dying Young. I LOVED it. I should watch it soon. I never really knew what kind of cancer but I just looked, blood cancer. Anyone else have a sad movie?

Then I ended my morning getting my son out the door talking about his body. He is learning about it in school tomorrow. He read a chapter in a book last night. He HAD to read it last night. I asked if they talked about ejaculations and nocturnal emissions (wet dreams). He said yes to all of above with a giggle. He told me he has had a wet dream. NOPE it was a sweaty night. LOL

So if one of us dies today this was our last conversation.

I will be back later with my God moment Friday. I still have a post I'm thinking about for Caregivers. Right now I'm falling asleep while typing. I'm nuts. :)

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